February 2012
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Just purged.
Fuck. I haven’t purged since November. I just binged and I HAD to get it out. I hope purging doesn’t become something I do regularly.
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I have to break this sugar addiction.
Starting tomorrow, I have to stop eating sugar. It’s the reason why I’ve gained so much weight, because when you eat sugar, your insulin levels rise and conserves fat. I know so many people who have quit sugar and they lost weight so fast. I just need to be thinner by spring break, and in the long run, prom. Also, my mom wants me to run this 5K with her next month, and I really want to...
January 2012
11 posts
Oh my goshhhhhhhh…why can’t I just eat like a normal human being? I need to start loving healthy stuff like, now. There’s literally nothing to really binge on in the house which is awesome, but I seriously need to lose this weight.
themanicdoll asked: Don't bum yourself out about eating some sweets today. Please don't restrict at dinner tonight. You can do it.
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Blah.
Today, I’ve woke up and decided I was going to be healthy and have an egg sandwich. I go into the kitchen to see that my mom made chocolate chip pancakes.
ugh.
I had about 2 and a half of those…then 2 scrambled eggs with cheese…and a small piece of sausage.
Not bad right?
Oh wait…but then I wanted the cookies and brownie I brought home from work last night. I had a...
ourroadtorecovery asked: ♥ Stay strong lovely.
Anonymous asked: In case noone's told you yet, then I'll tell you. Stop binging. Eat healthy. You're lovely but you need some time to breathe to see it.
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Okay, I'm starting this blogging thing again.
Hopefully it will help me recover if I make some friends on here that can support me through the process and I can support them.
Anywhos, today has sucked. All I did was eat, clean, eat, watch TV, eat some more, write some scholarship essays, and eat more. Last night, I ate a whole loaf of banana bread at 10:30pm. Like, who the fuck does that? I told my mom (she obviously knows about my disorder...
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Okay, seriously.
Someone tell me to stop eating. Please.
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I can't stand the person that I have become.
I never want to do anything anymore. I feel like I’m on autopilot everyday. I don’t have any life in me anymore. No more smiles. No more laughs. No more giggles, chuckles, or jokes. I am not the person I was a year and a half ago. I hate myself and who I’ve become. This disorder effects EVERYTHING in my life. My confidence, my body, my relationships, school, my attitudes, my...
fashiondollls asked: how did you recover? did you go to a nutritionist or a psychologist? or both? I seriously need help :(
Christmas break=almost over
This holiday season was not good to me, food wise…
I’m over it. It’s 2012. I’m ready to become a complete different person; one that is always happy, doesn’t procrastinate, doesn’t binge, works out, eats healthy, and loves herself.
I’m ready to wake up everyday and be proud of myself and who I am and what I look like.
Who’s with me? :)
fashiondollls asked: hey could I ask you some questions about your recovery process and your bulimia? I'm also bulimic :(
December 2011
6 posts
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Okay, I haven’t binged in nearly a month. Today is the day after a binge, and I feel better the day after a binge after not binging for so long than when I was binging almost everyday.
I guess that’s good.
Oh, and I’m not even hungry, and it’s 12:22pm. Back then, I’d be starving by now.
Eating as many vegetables, peppermint tea, and...
Oh, and I also have to work. fml.
Well, I guess you could call tonight a binge.
Ehh, every recovery has it’s relapses, right?
I made it to 28 days though, and that’s gotta count for something.
My news years resolution is to try to eat as healthy as possible and get 30 minutes of exercise a day. And I want to make this my last and final binge.
I don’t really know what came over me…I mean, I didn’t have a bad day or anything…my doctor...
Never again.
Will I bring a bunch of cookies home from work again. ever. in a million years.
I don’t need the sugar, haha. BUT THEY ARE SO FREAKING GOOD!
Probably had a little too many tonight, but its whatever. wasn’t a binge, so I’m okay with it :) I don’t even know how many days I’m at now…haha.
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Binge Free: Day 24
Wow, 24 days…I’m impressed with myself :) But the only thing is, I need to cut back on sugary foods. I seriously need to be 135 by Christmas. I want to be 135 on Christmas morning. And my New Years Resolution is going to be to lose the rest of my excess fat through healthy eating and exercise. I’m going to try to start exercising everyday, but it’s so hard to get it in...
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Binge Free: Day 21
So, my nutritionist the other day said I should be drinking less water…wtf?
She’s retarded. I don’t even need to see her. I know good well how to eat :P
Good day today I guess.
November 2011
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Binge Free: Day 20
Whattttupp :P
Went to my nutritionist today…fun shit right there. I don’t really like her that much. She doesn’t seem excited for me when I feel like Im recovering. It sucks. But whatever.
Anywho’s, today was alright. Nothing too fun, just school.
Well, I got a 94 on my AP Psych Test, which I guess is pretty cool. It was the only chapter that I actually learned really...
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Binge Free: Day 19
I did well today. No binging. And I “indulged” in 3 cookies that I made over the weekend after dinner. wooooooo :)
Also, I saw my counselor today, and she’s impressed with my progress :)
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Binge Free: Days 17 and 18.
Ehhh, I always go slack on the weekends…lots of sugar this weekend, not considered binging though…
I consider binging as a period of time where I feel absolutely out of control with what I am eating. And it hasn’t happened in 18 days.
femme-classique asked: Sorry for the millions of questions, and thanks for replying! Yesterday I found myself binging, just because to be honest, a part of me likes it? In the beginning, when you're hungry, the eating is fun. Then you get overstuffed and it's just awful. Today I didn't count calories but I did overeat, but I didn't binge! Not counting calories is so hard though, do you have any...
Anonymous asked: what are some other binge eating recovery tumblrs i can follow? i feel so alone!
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Binge Free: Day 16
Worked an 8 hour shift today :P And I work tomorrow from 10-3…woo.
Well, today was pretty good for the most part. I had oatmeal with cinnamon and raisins and a cup of coffee this morning around 7. Then around 11:15, I had half of a turkey and cheese sandwich. Then after I got off work at 4, I went to B&BW and spent my last 20 bucks on candles, hehe. Then I had a granola bar, and then...
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Binge Free: Day 15
Soooooo, thanksgiving…wasn’t as bad as I thought it’d be. This morning around 10 I had a freakin huge bowl of cornflakes (guess I was craving simple carbs) and some coffee and then had some turkey, some mashed potatoes and gravy, some collards, and some green beans around 3 or so and now I just got home and I had a slice of apple pie :) I don’t plan to eat anything else...
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Binge Free: Day 14
2 weeks. Thats cray-cray! :)
Soooooo, today was my first day of work, and it went really well. I work at a cookie company (triggering, I know), but looking at the nutritonal facts online of the cookies is enough for me not to eat one, hahaha. After work I went and bought some new work pants, and then went home…and when I got home, there was an envelope for me on the table…I GOT INTO...
femme-classique asked: Just curious as to how exactly you are managing not binging. Are you counting calories? Do you have set meals? Do you have dessert or have a small treat to lighten the cravings? I'm so upset with this disorder... I'd be lucky if I got to 7 days binge free anymore :(
Binge Free: Day 13
Alright, so I’m calling this a day where I slightly go over my calories, not binge persay…I’ve been depriving myself of my usual levels of carbs, so I went a little overboard at dinner and had nuts, some cake icing, a few bites of icecream, and some banana bread after having a turkey, cheese, hummus, and lettuce wrap…I think it’s cause I literally failed a test in...
Anonymous asked: you are such an inspiration!!!!! today is my 2nd day binge free....i desperately want to get as far as you!
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Binge Free: Days 11 and 12.
Woopsie-daisy, skipped a day :P
But it’s okay because I haven’t binged!
My first day of work is Wednesday, and I really hope I start to hate cookies after I start working here for a while…it’s at a cookie campany, bee tee dubbs.
Anywho’s, yesterday went well, today went well, and I plan on tomorrow going well too :) along with the rest of my life.
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Binge-Free: Day 10
Was so close to binging today…at dinner, I had chili and then I was seriously just gonna say fuck it and eat whatever because I have been craving sweets literally ALL DAMN DAY.
but I didn’t.
I settled for a little slice of cake…and the icing (which wasn’t a lot) off of 2 more slices, but I didn’t eat the cake part, haha. And I had a tiny handful of mixed nuts.
Oh,...
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Binge-Free: Day 9
Mmkay, so technically it’s day 10, but I didn’t write anything yesterday because I was too tired and too busy, haha. But I didn’t binge, and the urge to binge is gradually starting to go away! It’s been over a week, and I’m safe to say that I think I am really recovering! :)
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Binge Free: Day 8
Just another day…BUT I GOT THE JOB I APPLIED FOR!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
Oh, and no binging! :)
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Binge-Free: Day 7
I had a pretty good day today…no binging :) But I definitely didn’t get enough sleep last night. It’s not even 9:30, I’ve had 2 cups of coffee today, and I’m exhausted. But I still have homework to do. Lovely.
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Binge Free: Day 6
Stopped myself from doing serious damage at dinner today. I had a turkey, cheese, hummus, and lettuce on a whole wheat wrap. Then I had a HUGE bowl of cornflakes. Then I had 4 squares of hersheys dark chocolate.
Then I went and took a shower :)
I feel like I’m finally recovering…in reality, I just want an excuse to buy myself a new phone :) hehehehehehe
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Binge Free: Day 5
I never realized how good I feel when I don’t binge..crazyyy.
I don’t have bad gas anymore. I still feel a little bit bloated, but I think once I fully wean myself off of heavy foods, I’ll be better. I seriously cannot wait until I go to my therapist and nutritonist on the 28th and 29th because I know they’re gonna praise me for doing so well :)
Anywhoos, I got...
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Binge Free: Day 4
I had a great day. I didn’t binge, I rearranged my room (cause I thought I needed a change and it may help with my recovery…who knows? haha), and I got some stuff done…well not schoolwork and studying haha. This is gonna be a busy week and I have a lot of schoolwork to keep up with so hopefully that’ll distract me from binging.
I kind of have an incentive for myself for...
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Binge Free: Day 3
So, didn’t really binge today…but I just got home and I had some icecream and banana bread, but Im not considering it a binge because I was hungry before I started eating, I stopped when I was full (even though that was when I finished what I had portioned out for myself), and it wasn’t a crazy amount.
go me.
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Question.
What are some things you guys do to get your mind off of binging?
I’ve tried so many things to try to keep from binging and just eating out of boredom and emotions, but nothing has worked really…any suggestions?
Binge-free: Day 2
So, I told my boyfriend about my eating disorder last night and how I’ve been going to see a therapist and a nutritionist…he’s very supportive. Like, way more supportive than I thought he would be. I am so thankful we have such an open relationship like this. He also shared somw stuff with me about how he wants to lose weight because of health issues, which he isn’t fat...
ignoringthedistance asked: I have made a new self help blog. It would be really awesome if you'd be part of it :) you can even submit your own stories. the url is saveliveswithallies
There are 21 more days left in November.
I will make them binge free.
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My grandma just asked me what I want for...
I said nothing.
I want to be recovered and 10 pounds lighter though. I couldn’t say that because she has no idea that I have an ED.
A car would be nice too.
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I want to be free of this.
I cannot go on with this mindset my ED has set in me. My therapist isn’t helping. My nutritionist just repeats herself everytime I go in with her. I have an appointment with her tomorrow, and then I have a group therapy session that I am going to. They are at the same center.
I’ve asked my mom if she can take me to a psychiatrist, and she said she’d try and find me one. I...
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I am so alone.
I need a recovery texting buddy. now. I will take anyone who is going through recovery from an eating disorder. Just inbox me your number, tell me what you’re going through and I’ll inbox you mine. No one I know understands what Im going through, and I need someone to keep me on track.
October 2011
2 posts
November is going to be MY month.
October 30, 2011
It’s been a long month. Marching Band is now over, so the excuse of working off calories I eat during practice isn’t valid anymore, and I have to start eating less. I want to be 130 by Christmas. I was happy at 130. I need to get recover from binge eating. Nothing is working. I don’t know what to do anymore. For breakfast I had 3-4 servings of cookie crisp, a bowl of special K...